Ahem

Dear thief who broke into my car Tuesday night,

I know I shouldn’t have left my sunroof open. But that is obviously not an open invitation for you to invade my car and take the precious items that are in it.

Yes, you think you struck gold in my car. You took my low-grade GPS system, a bunch of old media equipment–cameras, flip camcorders, laptops, etc. from my work, and more.

But let me tell you a little something: that outdated equipment will give you barely anything on the market, or any real satisfaction. What you have really stolen is the opportunity for young students to express themselves through creativity and feel affirmed that what they have to offer is worth something. You robbed them of their hard-work from the year, as they put in energy and effort toward something they didn’t believe in–themselves.

So I hope you go through all that footage and look into their faces. Those are the faces you hurt and left with disappointment. Those are the faces that are building a foundation of what the world is like, and you have affirmed this world is one screwed up mess. And those faces are the ones that are starting to want to give up, because they start believing that working hard and putting themselves out there rarely gains them any good.

So I hope you’re happy.

You even knocked over my old smoothie and spilled it all over my car seat. What the heck man? Have some class. Geez.

But you know what Mr./Ms. Westwood Bandit, go ahead and take my “Funny People” Netflix DVD from my armrest compartment. That movie was terrible. Didn’t even want to finish it. So joke’s on YOU, you stupid son of a bitch.

This is Amy Hu signing off for March 25th, 2010.

Haiti Food Truck Fundraiser

What better way to raise money for the relief efforts in Haiti than through the novelty of 21 of LA’s food trucks? Maybe a Celine Dion benefit concert and free steak.

Last month, my friends (Andrea, Janelle, Jon and Derek) met up at the fundraiser (located on Tennessee and Butler Ave). As we parked and left the parking garage, the colorful food-filled mobiles lined up along the sidewalks and crowds of people were waiting patiently to savor the unique and delicious cuisine each one had to offer. From Dainty Cakes to Flying Pig to Get Shaved to The NomNom Truck, people were stuffing their faces and plotting their next tasty truck target.

I was able to stuff my own face with Get Shaved, LA Fusion, The Buttermilk Truck, Fishlips Sushi, and nibbles of other’s foods. The fundraiser was absolutely genius, combining a local trend with a good cause. It was indeed a happenin’ place and the turnout was well worth the efforts of each food mobile.

Teen Love?
While ordering some Korean-Mexican fusion tacos, the young man at the counter asked me for my name. I thought nothing of it, as people get their named called out to retrieve their food quite frequently. But the 16 year-old looking chap proceeded to then ask me my age, and I was indeed caught off-guard.  I answered him to not just feed into his curiosity, but also my own. It went something like this:

Food Truck Teen: “Okay Amy, great. That’ll be $7.50. Um if you don’t mind me asking, how old are you?
Me: Oh? Me? Um…22…”
Food Truck Teen: “Oh sorry never mind. Thought you were someone else…”

Really now? Someone else? Yes, I look like I’m sixteen. I forgive you. You hit on an older lady, it happens man. My curiosity had speculated it could possibly be a survey with free gifts and pretty rainbows for little ol’ me. Nope. And sure enough, when they were calling out orders, it was by our receipt numbers, not our names. Andrea had quite the laugh as I blushed and felt violated for some reason.

Trapped?
When we had just about fulfilled our cravings and appetite with the amazing variety of foods, we were ready to throw in our napkins and call it a day. The food truck buffet had burned quite a hole in my pocket (though most of pants already have holes from cell phone wear and tear), and Mr. Food Coma was putting up quite a fight with me. He was already throwing the punches and I was taking them like a little pansy.

So Derek, Andrea and I headed to the parking garage to retrieve my loyal steed. But upon arriving, something wasn’t right. Every door was locked and the large metal gates were down. Uh oh.

Defaulting to flustered gestures and Woody-Allen-type mumbling, I ran around the place wondering why I can be such a numb skull at times. Derek and Andrea calmed me down and tried to find a way. We eventually found a sign that explained it all: “Sat. and Sun. Parking Hours 9am-3pm.” It was 330pm.

But the Lord is full of grace and is one of power beyond petty mechanical barriers and parking restrictions. A middle-aged Asian woman angel drove up to the gate with access that we had oh-so longed for for the last fifteen minutes. We followed closely behind her car and ran in like a bunch of hoodlums.

I rushed to my car (who is possibly dealing with abandonment issues now) and we huddled to think about the next step. So we got in, but how to get out? Derek ran to an info booth and pressed for “Help” and a kind woman from the intercom world beyond told us to just drive up to the exit on the second floor. Just like that, I drove up and put my ticket in expecting to pay for overnight parking. But by a miracle and only one, I didn’t have to pay a dime. Not even for my two hours.

I drove out of their thankful for such a wonderful afternoon and able to laugh at how funny life is.

This is Amy Hu signing off for February 26th, 2010.

The Biznatch is Back

Now I’m not nearly as reckless as Elton John, but indeed I am back. And I guess I wouldn’t consider myself as bitchy as him in his hit song.

Back on InterVarsity staff as an intern, and ready to rock n’ roll. And in the past month, it sure has been rockin’.

Working with college students once again and being able to be part of their growth has given me so much life, joy, and deeper satisfaction. And in the midst of my own journey of piecing the broken work of God back together and attempting to find the colors to repair and repaint one of His many masterpieces, I can finally see how truly healing ministry can be.

Compared to before, it was hard to say it in the broken state I was in. Sure, we’ll always be broken people with constant struggles and are indeed works in progress. But in the past five months I have seen the ways I could have in no way, continued to carry on with my life without stopping and taking on what God so badly wanted for me–for me to see Him as one that loved me more than anything I could ever find in this broken world, and that my worth and voids in my life could not be filled with those who were just as needy as me.

And though I desired so badly to be part of God’s work especially living in InterVarsity’s community of servants and staff, I came to realize that taking the time off from the thing I knew I found too much affirmation in and would distract me from the deeper things God was doing, was the only place God wanted for me. And I am so thankful for that.

Yes, I still struggle today with coming back. I, at times, feel like Hester from The Scarlet Letter–marked and reminded of my sin and places I fall short. But there is redemption in the midst of struggling to fight off this way of viewing myself and at the time, trying to be a part of a community with boundaries and slight reminders that I am too broken to serve.

God has redeemed me, and helped me to see that He is not one to bring me back to something I desired so badly to remind me of my failures. He has instead carried me out of a suffocating, dark abyss where I was once choking and gasping for a savior and has brought me into the comfort of His arms. He wants me to be healed of my past and desires to love me more than anything in this world. He wants me to remember His grace, love and compassion, and that He made no mistake in creating who I am today. And so for me to be where I am today, He wants to remind me not of my shortcomings, but how much I need Him and how much He can still do both through and in me.

I can’t describe how grateful I am to be part of such an amazing opportunity. The InterVarsity intern life is crazy. It’s nowhere near normal and nowhere near appealing to many people. It’s far from relaxing and not simply a resume filler. Many around me find it confusing and even ridiculous.

But I am filled with faith, and even stubborn at times, to believe that this is life-changing, extremely challenging, full of deep satisfaction, humbling, and allowing me to mature in all areas of my life.

And hard as hell. But I wouldn’t rather be anywhere else. Not even as Celine’s life coach. Well, don’t tempt me.

This is Amy Hu signing off for February 26th, 2010.

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